EPICANTHUS

August 10, 2009

It’s been 5 days since I arrived home from my traumatic experience.

What have I done… hmm… let’s see. I made scrambled eggs with Hana, I walked around the neighborhood with Michael and Hana after dinner, I combed Hana’s hair and dressed her for school, I danced and jumped with Hana, I went to a cafe and had a very happy time with Michael listening to his life and shared mine, I went to church and was able to sing unto the Lord.

I am slowly fulfilling the wish list that I made in North Korea one item at a time.

Every moment when I realize it’s real, when I am home and I am with my family, I think of all the individuals who were there at the vigils, who wrote letters to us and to the government, who read and followed our news and were

Knowing that you would not stop until we came home kept me going day by day in North Korea.

As soon as I got home, after I gave a long hug to my family, I wanted to thank the people who helped me. I wanted to let people know how grateful I was and am. I found myself surfing the Internet and reading different blogs and news articles about us. Then I realized that I felt separated again from my husband and daughter, just as I was for 141 days in North Korea.

I decided then not to go through all the emails and articles just yet. I have not checked the Facebook pages about Laura and I or the web site, LauraAndEuna.com. Because I know that once I started to read them I would get caught up in all the love and support everybody gave me and I will neglect my family.

Hana is still a bit nervous about mommy going to work again. She told me today “Mommy, when I ask you to leave (she meant ‘come home’), please come home to me.” She told Doorie (one of my cats) “Doorie, if you don’t listen, mommy will go to the airport.”

I will wait for the time when Hana truly believes that mommy’s always there for her, then I will be free to share my stories and experiences in North Korea and be able to express how thankful I am.

My husband mentioned the names of so many individuals who helped us and supported us through this tough time. I won’t list the individual names here to thank because I believe you already know that I am talking to you when I say “Thank You.”

Again, I am blessed to have such support from everybody who participated and I won’t forget your love and I just want to say, “I love you too.”

Love,
Euna

via Free Laura Ling and Euna Lee